Dreams about betrayal. What does my dream mean?

Well, grieving is part of moving past the pain and getting on with your life, if you bottle it up, it will come out one way or another, if you realize it's coming out or not...I can relate, being a water sign myself...It sounds like you really need some closure on this, how old are you now? Do you have any idea how your mom is doing at all? If not, I'm sure that you must have a lot of questions on your mind, and the biggest one is no doubt "Why did you leave us?"....The part about eating dinner together of course would be a wish to go back to being a normal happy family...when she leaves, and your father said that you don't know her, well, you were saying it right out to yourself "I don't know my mother!" You chased after her because you want and need a mother in your life, she was driving backwards in the car because she is taking her life in a backward direction. You start crying please don't go, because you want who she was before she got into drugs to come back and be your mom again...when you put your head in a puddle, water is a symbol for the emotions, and in immersing your head in a puddle, it was symbolic for that you are drowning in your grief....you may not be acknowledging it in your waking life, but it is there, and it is trying to come out to the surface so you can deal with it and move on. I don't know what to tell you, your mom is mentally ill, and the chances are that she is not likely to return. I don't know if it would help you to find closure if you saw her or not, who knows where she wound up. Perhaps you would benefit from counseling to help you to face your grief and get past it, so you can go on to go live a good life yourself...Alcoholics Anonymous offers a support group for family members of alcoholics called Al-anon, and Alateen, I'm not sure if Narcotics Anonymous offers a similar group or not, you could check on that if you think it would help you to be around others in your situation.....good luck, and I hope you heal well from this issue....