I Feel Low Emotion if not Any, Has anyone experience the same thing?

A little insight about what i mean about this question. When I am sober and free of chemical influence I have no anxiety, no depression, no excitement, no pleasure and basically no thoughts. It seems like the autonomic responses kick in but not much more there are very seldom times that i feel the smallest emotion. This is no way to live a life, there are many things in my life that I can feel great about and there are some situations where I should get frustrated and mad but do not. So then I started taking medications, the typical antidepressant's that act on serotonin do not work, the only one that has come remotely close is wellbutrin. I have had a past complicated medical history that may relate to this but in general in my opinion this is more physiological than psychological experiences. PLEASE, ARE THERE ANY SIMILAR EXPERIENCES THAT SOMEONE HAS HAD?